the andychrist speaks

plooviax zemptercheigh vemkijo framdraskin newcrsta bhyghthur

2010-05-13T23:03:00.000-07:00

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links to me

2010-03-16T12:54:00.001-07:00

this blog has been left to rot for quite some time because I have other sites. here they are:
my pages

blog
http://www.zzajlatem.blogspot.com/
http://www.sheastofdefecation.blogspot.com/
http://www.ludumu.blogspot.com/

you tube
http://www.youtube.com/user/zzajlatem9501

myspace
http://www.myspace.com/9501westwind

weebly
http://lugubriousdungeonmusic.weebly.com/

final post

2009-10-17T12:15:00.000-07:00

I'm closing down this blog. it just holds too many bad memories and I want to focus on moving forward to better things. bye

what a waste

2009-10-17T05:20:00.000-07:00

I wasted so much time and money on that delsym experiment. all that I'm going to get out of it is toxic shite. that's right, I might not dook for a little while, but when I do it will peel the paint off the walls. the jalapenos and coffee are not easily forgotten. my farts require you to wear a radiation suit today, I can't imagine what the sheast is going to be like!
all dook jokes aside, the first thing I'm doing when I get my 401k is I'm getting a pet. this little apartment is so lonesome. I'll get like a ferret, or a rat, or something. if it's rats, there will be 2 and they will be female. the dude rats are assholes.
I was up so late last nightfinding out about cool websites on youtube. if any of them are worth while, I'll be sure to send the info along.

reverse cough syrup

2009-10-16T18:29:00.000-07:00

delsym is reverse robitussin. it still makes you not hungry, but you don't trip either. the delsym makes everything stop, so I'm giving it coffee, jalapeno peppers and psyllium shakes. all things that speed digestion the right way. let's add some hot sauce and fight the delsym. I might be up all night fighting the delsym, but I can't just sit here. everything feels bacwards too. help, coffee!

stormy night

2009-10-16T17:14:00.000-07:00

I'm stuck inside alone again. I'm going crazy in here by myself. nothing to do but bliggity bliggity blig. my digits will get damaged if all I do is blog my brains out! my mind is already cracking from boredom.

just in case

2009-10-16T13:13:00.000-07:00

I'm trying something different here, so if I don't make it back, I'd like a certain few people to know they are appreciated. the list is not in order: my mom, shawn, katie, blake, gangsta joe, logan, rick, mike millard, david mesa, dan kepler, arianne fulk, robin smith, cindy shackleford, heather from pgc, brenda napier, janet pimm, john bush, cal klippel, eric terrell. if i skipped you, it's either because I just forgot and made my list on the spur of the moment, or you were meant to be left out.

it's me-gol

2009-10-15T15:08:00.000-07:00

I just had to do it! i don't know whether I like him with or without the hair, so I'll put both up here. FUNNY!!!

well...

2009-10-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

i cashed my check, paid the electric bill and made a list of places to apply for a job at. sometimes it seems that there is just no place left for poor andy. it's not that i feel particularly bad, it's just that i feel i'm kind of cursed to sit here and be useless. i don't know what to do! I have to get groceries still and to tell the truth, you know what will probably make it's way into my basket. anyway, I'll eat lunch first and wait until after 6 to start it up just to make sure that nobody's going to call me and that arkron won't come knocking on my door. my new music downloads are doing good, so at least I'll have something good to listen to. that picture of the monster this morning was already in my computer, so I'll go find another one and say blig you later.

still so bored

2009-10-15T06:00:00.000-07:00

I got my 401k thing and my check from george dahl, so I'm just killing some time until I go take care of that and the electric bill. I've also got to get some groceries at the store, so I might as well do that too while I'm out. I still want to go make fun of the doctor at lakeside's emergency room again. I was thinking about it in my sleep. like... I should pretend to be on drugs again and make fun of dr. rat-fink phd. tell him he looks like steve buscemi and that his freemason's iron cross on a hemp necklace isn't as cool as he thinks it is. I can't help but think about getting more robitussin and having another wild time in brain-land, but I also am oh-so tired of that too. i'll just find a picture and say blig you later.

i wonder if there's a posts per day limit?

2009-10-14T13:54:00.000-07:00

I'm bored. I've heard viking metal, pirate metal, melodic death and speed. I've seen alex jones michael tsarion and david icke's entire filmography. did you know that a person can get bored with porn? I am! does brad neely have any new videos? now you don't have to look because I already seen them all! I don't want to guess how many movies I've seen. new world order freemason this and luciferian illuminati that! if it's got aspartame fluoride and mercury in it, then it must have high fructose corn syrup too. video games bore me to tears and I don't get any pleasure from youtube anymore. I know google video's entire inventory and what you can and can't watch on watchmovies.net. care to guess at how many websites i've been to? me either! I've played and gotten super stuck in every quest for glory and pretty much thrown my life away to final fantasy. I've had damn near every kind of beer and if I drink any more liquor I'll only get sicker. I can probably tell what brand of robitussin you've got just by smell AND what other ingredients are in it. I can tell if it's dextromethorphan polistyrex by putting it in a clear container and shaking it to see if it sticks to the sides. I've smoked almost every kind of pot and some things that are not. do you know that no snooze, no-doz, and ultra pep pak all give you a different feeling? I can tell them apart! ever gotten high on benadryl? dramamine? know that benadryl and sleeping pills are the same thing and that they feel a whole lot like nutmeg? I do. I'm tired of it! there's got to be something for me to do! something more rewarding than just sit here and get dumber by the moment! PLEASE HELP!!!! I"M GOING INSANE!!!!!

andy, a 40, robitussin!

2009-10-14T04:53:00.000-07:00

well, yesterday morning was going ok. I was feeling good listening to smooth jazz and I even threw out all the old bottles of every type. while I was doing that, there was heavy construction equipment working outside. it was loudand I was kind of wondering what was going on. meanwhile inside my brain, the voices that the doctors talked about were ramping up and gaining volume. at first I just drank my coffee and didn't worry about it. the jazz was really good and they had joel van beuren announcing. the female voice announcing what jazz was playing was a little soothing too. I said "why don't I give one of these video games a shot?" I tried a few different ones. the warcraft game was new and confusing, ok, something else. how about prince of persia 3? the prince didn't have much brain power and couldn't solve the simplest puzzle. I said "final fantasy is easy, I'll play that." I put in #10 and all of the menus went wonky and I couldn't pay attention to the cinematics. sometrhing was wrong. I thought that I had permanently damaged my brain because of 1 too many robitussins. I decided to go contact my parents because they should help me. I was totally paranoid and had given up all hope of returning to normal at this point because I couldn't play final fantasy and I couldn't play guitar. I showed up at 98 east ave. to be greeted by the dog and my dad was patient with me. I explained that my fear was that I had permanently damaged my brain because things were getting crossed and mangled and worse all the time. he took me to the hospital and they asked it was like when gollum was taken into mordor to be asked about the ring. amid my un-intelligable babble they got robitussin and that I didn't know how much I took. sauron, the doctor with the iron cross that looks like steve buscemi was very tired of me and sent me to the back room. at some poit they detached all the cables which kept me from running back and forth to the bathroom in front of all the emergency room patients. my mom got there and eventualy I came down from the drugs and they let us leave. my mom made dinner for us and my dad went to his important meeting. we walked the dog and tried to watch a movie, but I was too tired. I was walked home with the dog again and warned that bernie might call me. THAT WAS ROUGH! i don't think I'll touch anything like that again.

comfy apartment

2009-10-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

it's a good place. filled with guitars and musical equipment. computer torrents anything I want to watch or listen to. my farts feel really good. my legs feel like jelly and my brain does what it wants. if you couldn't tell, I woke up from a nap and am feeling fine.

cleaned and healed

2009-10-12T11:59:00.000-07:00

this morning was really rough, but I got through it. I tried to take advantage of myself and record a really sad song, but I couldn't get it off the 4track and all it was was A anyway. maybe I'll lift it later for a sample or intro. richard gave me lasagna and I should probably try to eat it. I cleaned up all of the mess I made in my apartment and filled my car's tires with air.

strange trial by tussin

2009-10-12T00:28:00.000-07:00

I drank the super tussin last night. it was too much, I don't have any plans for futher dxm and I think it's best left alone. no more cough syrup for me, thanks. those demons can now be put to rest.. I'm typing this at 3 in the morning and I have a strong suspicion that richard is wondering what's going on too. I think I' m hearing him through the walls.

unemployed cough

2009-10-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

I'm still wating to hear back from george dahl. I want to learn to work with the B800 unit and grout things and do tile. I will bust my ass for george dahl if he accepts me. I will put in long days doing hard work. I want to work hard even if it's just cleaning construction sites, I will make them the cleanest. Ihave taken 5 oz of delsym and 8 oz of rmsc. reality is bendinng for me.i should play a video game at this point and try to enjoyit. nothing to do but robotrip till he calls me.

hamlin party and real jesus

2009-10-10T13:10:00.000-07:00

last night was logan's birthday, so I went out to eat with my mom and got money, then drive for like over an hour to go get logan to bring him to rick's for a get-together. the one armed man was there with tom, the acoustic song man and his weird girlfriend who calls me smeagol. rick, tom and myself stayed relatively sane through the time there as we drank some beer and played lots of guitar. tom's girlfriend had this insane need to talk to me in the most disomforting way possible and the one armed man got falling down-getting up-falling down drunk. he probably opened more beers than anyone else and also spilled more beers than he opened. logan disappeared. he was eventually found hiding by the side of rick's trailer outside in the rain. tom, his girlfriend, and the one armed man went home and I also left at like 2 am. since picking up logan at like 9 last night I have been promising him to bring him on a pilgrimage to meet with real jesus (shawn). i have not recieved any answer from him or rick (who's living room I left him sleeping in) about whether or not this will happen. the other matter to contend with is my plentiful array of cough syrups in my room. they call to me in sickeningly sweet voices, but I may have to run a mission in the automobile.plaese, rick, give me a sign!

incendiary motivation

2009-10-09T11:00:00.000-07:00

I've been lighting digital fires under everyone's asses with caustic emails. let's sort the adults from the children here! everybody from the digressive jazz band chain got a message requesting a single jam session one-on-one, logan got a reminder to check my internet presence and I asked him how goes it. aslo libby the girl from craigslist got a steel gauntlet slap-in-the-face wake up call. I'm ringing hammer on anvil and calling all true viking warriors to my side! come out from your meade-halls and log-houses to heed my call and join me on the feild of battle!!!! TRUE WARRIORS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!!

guidance

2009-10-08T10:59:00.000-07:00

I was out riding today because I've been watching bicycle anime called overdrive and I thought of good things. I am a student of the world and my master is cosmic consciousness. I am also my own master and have to figure out what to teach myself.I've studied under other masters too. dan kepler taught me things, david mesa imparted wisdom, mike millard threw in his 2 cents and shawn coleman opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at things. now I'll finish watching this movie and try to go learn something new.

tired morning

2009-10-07T07:10:00.000-07:00

I've been in and out of bed since like 3 or 4 am. get tired, go to bed, can't sleep, use the internet, get tired again. I must be low on potassium. I look like a nightmare. recovering has to be done.

more coherent bligotry

2009-10-06T23:04:00.000-07:00

ok, I went to the video game store today and got fucked by gwen. I wish that was literally, but it's financialy. 12 dollars for final fantasy 7. the 60 dollar game. she was nice though and let me try things out. then I did the roundabout expensive tussin route and saw charlie at his work. these pics were taken at mid day. I just went for a delsym bike ride and the only way I can describe it is that all of the words would sound too fem. beautiful... delsym does that.

crazy idea fruition

2009-10-06T21:39:00.000-07:00

it must have been the grape delsym that inspired me because charlie and myself are going to do a puppet show. I've got 2 puppets in the works and my tv box will be the stage. he wants more than his pitiful job and I don't really have a pitiful job right now. we seem to be two peas in a pod as he doesn't care if I drink cough syrums and I could give a fuck less about his beer drinking. we'll get together tomorrow and hopefully, he'll take charge of the plot element as I'm doing all the construction.

plans

2009-10-06T02:39:00.000-07:00

well, I had a day today. I got some insurance stuff straightened out and found out that the jam shack doesn't want any more guitar teachers. hung out with charlie and luke, then came home to drink cough syrup. here's my old recipe for super tussin: 5 oz. delsym 1 jar robitussin pills 1 bottle rmsc. soak, chop and strain the pills to remove the non-drug elements, then combine all 3 liquids in a container. you can add coffee if you so desire. this produces 654mg dextromethorphan hydrobromide and 887.19mg dextromethorphan polistyrex. this is not for the faint of heart. please robotrip 2 days in a row before taking this to get your tolerance up as this could f your mind in ways that humans were not meant to get their minds eft. I'm pretty sure I used the 3 ouncer though as the 5 ounce is 12 dollars. 3 oz of delsym contains 532.323mg of dextromethorphan polistyrex. this seems much more reasonable because I would do this for a few days on end and am still alive and relatively coherent. the math involved in calculating these thing is astronomical! I can't believe I figured this out, but couldn't pass math class in school. I'm going to be making the latter when I get some money and if I'm still living on my own in a little while here. this is like a thing to do on thursday after sleeping a wednesday after work. get lots of rest and food, then HIT THE DRUGS!!! probably end up feeling like this picture.
anyway, I've still got to get my 401k and some money from george dahl, so blig you later!

compiled dead-stone forest

2009-10-04T18:07:00.000-07:00

these are the best of the pictures from the dead stone forest. logan's is bigger probably because I'm more used to my phone's camera. I just gave my parents an update cd of my music in exchange for dinner. webcam's up and running along with the button maker, so hopefully I'll get productive in the near future. I also contacted some people in craigslist about a "digressive jazz band to go off on tangents". I'll be going to the jam shack tomorrow to ask to be a teacher. if this was a bet, I'd put all my chips on the future and give that wheel a spin while rolling as many dice as I can find!

logan's break: complete

2009-10-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

I dropped logan off last night to his brother's place. he can go back to his recliner and dogs. before we left, we made sure to have fun though. he beat one of my video games and I consumed enough drugs that I couldn't get fucked up anymore. here's the evidence of fun:

caffeine night

2009-10-03T01:02:00.000-07:00

I'm typing by the light of the screen while logan sleeps behind me. this is better than where he came from. there he was sleeping in a recliner. I tried to have brain fun tonight, but I didn't succeed. the robitussin and beer got into a fight in my stomach and neither of them won. my iron gut technique canceled them both,so I popped every kind of pill I could find in my cabinet including aceitaminophen and caffeine. now it's 4 in the morning and I'm still up because of the drugs, but I didn't get any recreational use out of any of them. lets see if the caffeine animation works.

construction site cleanup yesterday.

2009-10-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

yesterday, I worked for george dahl again cleaning up the construction work being done on an extension to a house somewhere in rush. 2 characters got nicknames and I've thought of a grand new nickname for someone else. brian that I work with is the B800 unit like arnold's model number in terminator 2 because he works all day with no breaks and no lunch. the vaccum cleaner earned the name of doctor rockso because all it did all day was suck up white dust. lastly, shawn coleman's girlfriend is being asked right now if his name cane be changed from tumbleweed to real jesus. this makes for some funny joke openers like: real jesus and fake satan were sitting at the bar one day... you get the idea. the other thing that happened yesterday is that I met a new co-worker, rich and got bit by his dog. rich seems cool, but I'm not sure that I like the only dog that has ever been mean to me.

logan"s back.

2009-10-01T01:29:00.000-07:00

I picked up logan tonight and we went for a walk when we got to brockport. I was paranoid and logan was loud and using his outside voice. we came back to make buttons and listen to music.

Today's Most Serious Topic!

2009-09-29T12:51:00.000-07:00

the most earth shattering thing off my lips as soon as I awoke from my nap this afternoon:
wild drug cults of the 1970's that became rewlatively unsuccessful businesses of the 1980's. it's an extremely limited realm of investigation, but I consider myself to be an expert on the subject!
don't get bligdrecuted!!!!

storm day

2009-09-28T12:36:00.000-07:00

just got off the phone with logan, he's back from new mexico now. turns out he had an awesome vacation full of fun in the sun. i was out in the storm today. walking back from the dollar store getting dvd player cleaning supplies. the pic is from right before the storm. i also sold dvds and ps2 games. I got a letter from the unemployment people saying that since I showed up drunk to get fired, I can't collect unemployment. things have gone from better to bad to worse as jon wayne would say. I'm going to contact the 401k people now and demand money. blig you later

blig from the other side

2009-09-28T00:55:00.000-07:00

I'm totally robotic. keyboard is a monster. dont know if i'll ever recover.

courtyard pic

2009-09-27T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'm posting here for some reasons. the courtyard pic, obviously. it came out beautifully. I wasted a lot of time and money going to tops today. gas was wasted, and the syurup costs almost 5 dollars a bottle there (twice the price as wegmans). I bought it anyway and the label is different, but it's the same brand as wegmans and the same thing on the label. let's hope the contents match too! the other reason I'm posting is to kill some time because the only other thing I have to do today is watch the ten commandments. I don't know how biblical it will get, but I've heard it's mad long. I also put some chord progressions and lyrics together this morning to make a gothic jazz number. it might get recorded at some point, but I'm kinda steering away from the 4 track these days. it's just so much work to get a song that can't be performed live or repeated except by playing the mp3. anyway, I've been blogging a lot and should really get my fingers out of the blig before it grows teeth and bites them off.

general unease

2009-09-26T18:12:00.000-07:00

I chilled at urinymous busch's place this afternoon. we played guitar, I watched him play an extremely violent football game, and we watched some youtube. of course we also had to go to the store to get his namesake brand of american piss beers. ever since like 10:30 or 11 last night, I've had this INSANE craving for MASSIVE amounts of dxm. I mean, like 1062+ kind of obscene quantities of cough syrup. 708 just didn't do it for me! I want to get to the point where I'm completely freaking out and can't even enjoy it anymore. this is because of my overall insatiable thirst for mind bending chemicals, my previous experience with this stuff, and my recent (dramatic) increase in usage leading to a high tolerance. the pisser is that I have to go hang out with my parents tomorrow night and eat dinner with them because I have to ask for $150 to pay for health insurance. obviously, if I were to dose tonight (2nd night in a row, massive dose, only 5 hours of sleep so far since 8 am yesterday) they would REALLY be able to see me not being as sober as they would hope, hence not giving me money.anyway, I'm going to try to get some sleep here soon and tear my filthy digits away from this accursed blig.

always lose the smallest thing

2009-09-25T20:23:00.000-07:00

I've lost a headphone converter. it turns the regular headphones into the big plug that fits in my surround sound system. I can't remember where I put it. I don't want to go to walmart for another one right now, but it seems that is the case. unless i find it or figure out another way to convert. it took like an hour to figure out that it was in the record player.

gollum... gollum...

2009-09-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

splishes and splashes, my precious! tricksy insurance men tries to fuck us, they do. wriggling and slippery fuckers just like fishes. but we fucks them back! job people calls us too... from leroy. we KNOWS where they isssssss... smeagol will be on his best behavior. yessss, we will!

smeagol

2009-09-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

the precious is here. we hides it in our cave. whilst eating buddhist gruel and watching kung fu. don't bother us! we are in deep conversation with ourselves.

long, hard... day of work

2009-09-23T16:43:00.000-07:00

Well, I just thought I'd stick my detestable digits in the blig for a quick update. I worked at a construction site today with a sheast porta-potty and a really cool toad whose home I had to take away. he was under an empty box, and it was my job to clean the place all day. I was with a guy my age named brian and we met the boss for lunch. arkron hooked me up with this work. the boss is his buddy, george dahl. I saw the logs that arkron had to cut and tell me stories about repeatedly. also, Libby (girl from craigslist) texted me today. I was happy to hear from her and told her how much I was working. overall, I'm tired!

late night

2009-09-22T00:51:00.000-07:00

it is late and I am up and feeling wild. I spent a lot of today doing good stuff. I got my car inspected, did laundry, and got to drive my dad's fav auto, the '64 riviera. he says that I can drive it when I want, but I would really rather drive the effing batmobile. it is comfy and has king diamond tapes in it! if I inherit that sweet ride, I will put a decent system in it. nothing fancy, I just want to listen to good music. slap some regular-a speakers in that thing and cruise down the road listening to judas priest or something. what would really hit the spot right about now is some really flourescent green hippy lettuce with red and orange hairs through a multi-stage ice-bong. unfortunately, I have to be able to pass a drug test, so that won't happen.here's a pic of the riviera.

yard work!?

2009-09-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

people are outside the building right now ruining the tropical rainforest!. they have loud buzzing and growling instruments of destruction that they are using to exterminate any plant life they can catch with their blades of anti-hippydom. those fuckers better not touch my beautious squishes or the awesome pricker bush! not like I'd do anything besides miss my stoic landmarks, but that's besides the point. i'm hoping for a call from jason today. I promised his GF some anime. plant killer pic must be placed... got it!

weird day

2009-09-18T17:58:00.000-07:00

today was kinda funky. I got up and did my normal internet thing. texted katie about my paycheck and she said she would deliver it sometime after 1. then my dad called at 11:30 and invited me to lunch. I insisted we go to subway to get the AWESOME deal of buy one get one. I got foot-longs and he got 6". we both paid the same amount. he complained to me and I told him that I had informed him of the deal before we ordered. he lectured and preached and made me not want to be there. he dropped me off at 12:30 so I could be home to get my paycheck. at 3:30 I got a call to go pick it up in holley. not in the plan, but I got it and my videos along with the captain morgan keychain. I rushed around for about 45 minutes cashing my check, paying the electric bill and getting groceries. I even saw julie who says she has 4 jobs, but I'm thinking maybe 1 or 2 at most. texted teddy about rent payment because I have enough money, filled out the COBRA insurance form.. I was busy! so everything is caught up. now I have to find a job so I can keep it that way. the temperature is funny today. not quite warm enough for summer wear, yet not cold enough for fall fashion. I'm going questing to find a cool image to attach here. it only took about 5 seconds to find something way out there! a robot frog that jumps onto an office chair! that's wild!

job interview

2009-09-17T15:49:00.000-07:00

ok, I drove a total of about 60 miles and spent 3 hours at the job interview. by the half way mark I didn't want the job anymore regardless of the fact that I'm so qualified it hurts. turns out... unemployment continues!! YAY! more sitting in front of the computer! no 60 miles a day commute! no dead pigs... no dead frogs.. no skeletons... alright, so not everything is good, but I tried and it's all for the best anyway.
MATT I can see the chameleon shirt through my blog. you better not be reading this on the clock, you know that's a fireable offense! and tell mike wells to stop playing penguin baseball on the work computers too. you guys are such outlaws.
anyway, I got an email from my friend that got thrown in the spam bucket, so I am VERY happy that she isn't ignoring me or something.

wuxia nightmares

2009-09-16T15:55:00.000-07:00

that was a rough night. I can remember lying on my bed listening to chinese music with my eyes closed and having wuxia nightmares of thousands of jiang-hu underworld masters flying through a bamboo forest and wrapping long scarves around trees. the ravi shankar was accompanied by middle eastern carvings that flowed like water. I got scared and got up to try and comfort myself with the internet only to be struck by the worst feelings available.
the mr. clean picture is still funny though, and I intend to stick with that idea. I'm just blogging to blog, so I'll get my digits out of the blig before something weird comes out of them.

no more drugs.

2009-09-16T01:57:00.000-07:00

i don't want any more drugs. the tussin is treating me like a punching bag and I hate it. the creepy crawly feeling all over me is too much. I know I will live through this and when I come out the other side, no chemicals will enter my body. I will be so clean that I will shine. not even coffee. I'm going all natural when this is over. if I have to eat rice and water, so be it! I will pollute my body no more. the world has never seen a man so dedicated to doing good. you can take your religions and shove them up your dogmatic ass. I will live for me. I will get a good job and when I get home from work, I will practice guitar. I will learn from books how to be the best guitar player and herman li will sound like shite. al di meola will invite me to play with him because I will shred so clean and so nice.
anyone who knew me will be surprized at how I have changed. I remember a little robo-tripper who wrote something called champion of changes. I will be the normal one. and sucessful. underdog from left field, watch out because I am going to do something right!

paradox flip-flop

2009-09-15T17:35:00.000-07:00

after the last blog entry, I hibernated for 22 hours straight. I may have gotten up to use the bathroom twice at most. at about 8 am this morning, I awoke empty, weak, but somehow refreshed. breakfast was had with some episodes of chromartie high school (a new anime that kinda sucks when I'm not getting eft on chemicals). I surfed for jobs and cleaned out my email after getting a call from 2 different places wanting interviews, then called my dad and got my car up to par. we did stuff like fill the tires, clean the windows, and check the brakes (which were fine despite the shaking). I got the usual lecture about what to do. I listened and took note of things he said, but didn't take it as the absolute set in stone gospel. we made an appointment for my inspection at the place down the street where he knows the mechanics. I was promised $50 to put new windshield wipers on my car and to pay for inspection. I bought and replaced the blades myself and got a sub for lunch. after that, I stopped by to see arkron. he listened as I explained the good things that I have been doing. taking care of business, getting calls, fixing my car... I copied some chords from his guitar book and looked at his new painting with him. we agreed about what was good and bad about it as I pointed out a muddy area in the corner and he told me about painting the rocks along the stream (a very common element in his work). the fu that I watched today was come drink with me. it involved surprisingly little alcohol and turned out to be a 2002 remaster. it was really cool because the underdog from the beginning becomes a respected hero in the end. that about brings this up to date. if you can't figure out why this is called the paradox flip-flop, you're dumber than I thought so don't read my blog anymore.

legend of liquid shite

2009-09-14T11:55:00.000-07:00

well, I walked to the hospital last night thinking I was going to die. they made me drink charcoal and swallow gigantic potassium pills. the dumbass doctor couldn't figure out what kind of syrup I drank and there was one nurse with the good the bad and the ugly face. then they pumped me full of liquids and wouldn't let me use the real toilet and I just couldn't piss in the recepticles they gave me. shawn txted me to see if I was ok cause I had sent him a cry for help. by that time I felt more myself and had my usual punk-bravado back on. I was taking pics of my shite in the toilet and told him that I got some of the sweetest dook pics ever. the doctor that replaced the other one looked like steve buscemi and was wearing a freemason's iron cross. I told him that I was fine and wanted to go home to sleep because I couldn't get any rest there. when he said ok, I peeled the sticky things off of me which the nurse didn't like. they told me to follow up with dr. garg which I won't do and gave me the card of their insurance guy and told me to call him so I wouldn't have to pay the bill. I have a feeling that insurance is more money than the bill, but that's besides the point. I'll call the guy and try to make a deal of some kind. all this time, I'm either on the toilet summoning the charcoal or in bed having to pee so bad I can taste it. they gave me a tray that they called breakfast which consisted of things too nasty to touch, sugar, high fructose corn syrup, milk and oj. I ate the dead bread and drank the breakfast liquids, but balked at the coffee and rice pudding. if I had drank that coffee, they would have regretted giving it to me as they would have gotten the bed linnens soiled. now I'm home with another hospital band for my collection waiting for teddy to come and take my last $200. CHECK THE SWEET DOOK PICS!

robitussin

2009-09-13T23:49:00.000-07:00

it fs your mind and it fs your body. it fs your soul. it fs your life. it fs everything that you thought you knew is gone. don't drink robitussin.

trial in 10 min.

2009-09-13T15:11:00.001-07:00

it's 6:10 on sunday. I'm going to my parents' place to eat dinner and explain to them that I got fired for constantly causing problems and showing up drunk. but I feel great! it's like I had been wearing all my winter coats for 3 years and now they are on the floor and I am FREE! I've been talking to a girl through email, appying everywhere i can and even some places where I can't and some jobs I'm not qualified for. I even contacted kirby vaccum cleaners. the whole world is at my fingertips and I haven't touched booze in 4 days! not quite my 2 week record, but getting there. urinymous busch hasn't called me probably because he read too much of my blog. jason, shawn, and arkron have encouraged me every chance they got. I feel free as a bird! 3 minutes left, better stop till next time my damn digits start typing obscenities into this here blig.

not everything looks down

2009-09-11T21:40:00.000-07:00

i've tried to handle this career change like an adult. the first thing I did was stop drinking and give the rest of my booze to richard. he can drink the cheap vodka and have fun because he's old and doesn't have to do anything productive. 2nd, I applied for unemployment. I might have to change supervisor names on the form, as I might have written sue swanson instead of wells. it should be an easy thing to fix and I'll check that tomorrow. I've applied to some places around here including the millhouse where my friend, jason works. he says they need a dishwasher, which could prop me up, pay me under the table while i look for something better. hopefully, I will recieve a last check from pgc. I'll ask shawn to tell them to mail it to me as I don't want messy confrontations. if I have to move back to my parent's place, so what? it's not like I haven't done it before. I want to avoid that if possible though. sunday I will go to my parent's for dinner and discuss what is to be done. it's not going to be easy, but it needs to be done. maybe we can put our heads together and control the damage. the whole idea here is to stay calm and try to handle things like adults. hopefully the unemployment thing doesn't throw a monkey wrench in the works.
I've also gotten a response from a girl on craigslist. she seems kindof wierd. probably a good match. she has one thing that I haven't found before on that site. she's human! not an auto-response come look at porn program or an endless "moving to rochester" emailer who sends the same message every time.
The person who has been most supportive of me is richard! arkron, my old neighbor! he says "this is a golden opportunity for you to get a good job" and "aim for the stars, you might just hit the sky, but that's better than hitting the floor!" I'm really happy he's my neighbor even if it's only for one more week before I move back in with my parents. having someone believe in you is priceless.
I called tj today because it's his birthday (wait, now it's yesterday!) he was overjoyed to even get a phone call from me. I told him happy birthday and have fun going out to eat.
the pgc weight was so heavy and now it's gone! I am free to look for a good job at a sane company and try to be good. one thing that I know is gone is the booze. that will weigh a man down to his grave if he carries it for too long.

scrape self off floor

2009-09-10T16:19:00.000-07:00

there have been some changes taking place in as controlled a manner as possible. I went to apply at the millhouse as per jason's instructions and on the way, met my father who was on his usual "fuck looking for work, let's spy on andy" rounds. he said he noticed my car in the driveway (he looks for it every day) and asked me why I wasn't at work. I didn't go into detail, but told him that I got fired and it was my fault. kind of a load off, as there aren't any worthwhile secrets my fam don't know anymore. the first day without work, I was very hung over and spent some time in bed when I wasn't hanging out with jason. today, I spent a lot of time online applying to local businesses which all seem to be affiliated with something called kronos. the ancient meaning of this term is some type of malicious time entity who isn't too far removed from what modern people would call satan. there was no satan back then, so all of these different dieties from around the world have aspects that eventually got mixed down to make devils of different semi-ancient origin. I am sure that the horns and all-seeing eye are the main ingredients. it doesn't take icke or tsarion to see these things in this journal image or to make the connection to the heavy metal bands that use the word (kronos from france and the lead singer from venom). anyway, I'm making an effort to get some new income started, so that's all I can do without a time machine to go back in time and REALLY fix things.

the downward spiral

2009-09-09T07:30:00.000-07:00

I showed up to work late and drunk this morning and started talking shit right away. by 8, I was called into the office where I said "I can't take any more of these office meetings, just fire me" and they did. so here's where it stands: I want to do some tussin to shock the old system and take a day off to compose myself. during this time, I will try to apply for some jobs via the internet and try not to lose my apartment. that place was really bad for me anyway. anybody who likes drinking in the least bit gets turned into an alcoholic by the old pgc. for fuck's sake it was driving me to dig up dxm demons from the past! anyway, I caught a pic of some fungus in the duck pond park and that's it for now.

b-town is dangerous!

2009-09-06T19:39:00.000-07:00

main street is TORE UP!!! they put giant holes in the sidewalk with fences around them, there are hoses EVERYWHERE, sometimes they even close the road. I went for a ride tonight to get a deuce from K&K and had a perilous journey. on top of the already trecherous path through darkness and being blinded by assholes with their high beams on, I had gaping crevasses to circumnavigate though peoples' front yards.
fuck, nobody reads this thing anyway, I'll spill the beans. when my damned digits typed into this here blig about being like really sick or having done something wrong recently, I was refering to one of the darkest demons in my jaded past, our old red friend, robitussin. ouch. the word even hurts to type. most people say that if they go back to it after a long time, they don't really like it, but nobody I read about says it feels like concentrated hell! I used to REALLY dip into that stuff and it's been a very long time, but after that many years of not using it, Ive had 4 experiences in the past 2 years. 2 of them were decent and 2 complete misery. during fearless l's reign of terror, I left aa and figured "hey, what if i did drugs instead of drink?" what followed was a short time of forcing myself to smoke pot and drink shitty beer. I got into wild irish rose hardcore and used it to indirectly damage my car.
2 nights during that time, I went to eckerd and got tussin pills. the first time, I was foolishly bold with the dosage. 2 bottle for 600mg total. I layed on my couch and watched regular tv like dirty jobs. it hurt, I did the walk, drank water out of a yellow mobil on the run cup and had a horrible time. the second time, I tried one bottle and didn't think it was too bad. it just fucked me up so much that all i could do was listen to music.
I stopped for a while. drank a lot, started smoking pot again, started enjoying pot again.
the job has been getting to me lately. bad enough to conjure forth demons from the past that were thought to be forever buried? you bet! the first time, I was really drunk and just made a bee line for wegmans. I was probably doing caffeine pills at the time too. it fucked me up hardcore, but i almost had fun. until i woke up the next day and was still seeing digital. I spent the day in bed and misery. it took me all day to eat a granola bar. on the plus side, I watched really good anime that night called sword of the stranger.
friday night, I knew I had a bottle in my room and decided during the course of the week to drink it that night. friday came and I got a mean coffee for lunch. coffee treated my alcoholism like a punching bag. I felt bad enough when I got home to take a nap. I woke up and started drinking, then took the dex. eventually, I became more and more toasted by the 2nd plateau buzz. tried to watch movies and stuff to no avail. it weren't no fun! I kindof writhed through my apartment doing the walk and trying to get comfortable. i even had to mellow out the playlist when I was listening to music. the next day I spent a lot of time in bed and again couldn't eat much.
the last 2 were syrup and the 1st were gel caps. I have to say I prefer the syrup. it tells you what it is very directly and goes down quicker than a bunch of giant pills. I'm not saying it's never going to happen again, but in the forseeable future, there is not a chance.
so, if I've divulged the wrong secrets to the wrong person, please leave a comment, you will be the first to do so on this damned blig.

wrong.

2009-09-04T23:18:00.000-07:00

i did the wrong thing. if sorry would help, I would say it, but where I am, sorry just doesn't cut it. you just have to count on waking up the next day. i will have the king of hangovers.

neighbor's hops

2009-09-04T19:13:00.000-07:00

I think that my neighbors are growing hops to brew beer with. they are all over my side of the fence and jason was with me and saw them, asking if they were hops. wikipedia showed a picture that looked exactly like what was outside. anyway, i'm getting fucked up and should post before I lose the ability to do so.

another long blog...

2009-08-30T10:18:00.001-07:00

firstly, I just downloaded the project a ko series and it's absolutely full of sexual inuendo. ako and bko are both sex objects as they are shown in suggestive situations at every possible time. they fight aliens that look like dudes, but they are chicks. boobs, panties and all. the videos that I got show some nudity that I don't remember from the scifi channel anime show so long ago. this picture cracks me up. 2 women ready to fight, being compared to MALE lions in the background, AND they do the glipmse-of-panties shot for ako.
the weekend was rough too. on friday night, I hung out with charlie and luke, played guitar, had like 4 mixed drinks while looking for lettuce. right before I left charlie's, I texted joe to see if he had a contact. he did and late at night and drunk, I went to leroy to get dope. I felt fine until we stopped in a parking lot to smoke a blunt. then I became completely fucked up. d and lisa were at the bar there so that was cool. I also saw one of the old temps. we finally got back to joe's where we smoked more and I passed out on his couch as per joe's orders. I woke up barely alive the next day and got a ride to my car. I got home knowing that the family picnic was that day and tried in every way to revive myself. I should have just got a drink and tried to cover up the booze stink instead of trying to cover up such a brutal hangover. the picnic was horrible except for the food and I could barely stay in a coversation with even my closest cousin, don. my parents were clearly displeased with me and dropped me off at like 7 pm much to my relief.
I got some drinks into me and broke up my new bag. it was all seeds, stems and leaves. apparently the stems and leaves were from a very high grade plant because I got toasted every time I smoked it. I've got other stuff to do here besides blog, so that's it for now.

brainwashing site alert!

2009-08-27T13:50:00.000-07:00

I was just at www.sweetsurprise.com and they were trying to pull the wool over my eyes about high fructose corn syrup. they said it has nothing to do with obesity and that it is totally natural. ok, time to come clean (at least with the computer) about the past 2 days. I got out of work in a hurry on monday and bought a bottle of rum. hung out with urinymous busch and our old buddy, luke. apparently, he just got out of jail for what he calls "lots of shit". I didn't question further. charlie busted out the grim reefer and I went home nice and toasted after hanging out for a while. woke up the next day, had normal breakfast, cup of coffee, bike ride... about 2pm I began to feel that unique feeling of alcohol withdrawal and caffeine energy at the same time. I went to subway at walmart in intense pain. got chocolate milk from walmart proper and an italian sub from their subway. I returned home to quiet my demons with placating chocohol and sub while watching "white water summer" with kevin bacon as the abusive hiking leader. after a while I was feeling more myself and decided to see what the nothing masters across town were up to. nothing much obviously. i debated things with charlie a little and went home when I ran out of booze. oh, man this is where it gets bad! like fliff night bad! bored out of my brains with no booze and no dope, I ride to wegmans (this is after half a bottle of rum which explains the bent wheel on my road bike (nothing major) and the way that my toenail is completely destroyed on my left foot. what I bought there explains why I didn't feel the toe injury until 6:30 the next day) I got myself a bottle of doppelbock and a bottle of rmsc. if you don't know what that is, good. let it be. all I remember is smoking lots of resin while watching "cocaine cowboys" and waking up in a horrible way. upon first awakening, my vision went digital and I did THE WALK to the bathroom. it took me until 3 or 4 to be able to watch a video on my computer and all day to eat one granola bar. I was in bed trying not to die the rest of that time. I went back to work today to the computers not working and tried to handle it as best I could. when I told bob to stop taping the flaps of boxes over the labels, he threatened to punch me in the face. I got in deep trouble over this and in the middle of trying to catch up with a massive amount of work, I was called to the office for a conference about how bad I am. this is the only reason I enter that room besides to punch in and out. it seems to happen literally all the time. now I am drinking bartons vodka with some apple and orange trying to regain some sense of sanity. maybe a bike ride will help.

yuck

2009-08-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

that puke that wanted to come out came out all last night. I had to call in to work again today because I bareley made it out of bed. I'm just so drained that I can't do anything.

alcohol + caffeine = pain

2009-08-25T11:55:00.000-07:00

that's right, I'm shaking so hard I can't hold my drink, feel like i need to cry and puke, but can't do either. aren't drugs fun?!

financial pressure building

2009-08-22T08:11:00.000-07:00

I'm going to pay some bills today: my electric and the ambulance bill from when I couldn't drive to work without discorporating. that leaves the 75 dollar hospital bill and the rent that teddy won't pick up. otherwise, I've got absolutely nothing to do this weekend. new tube for the bmx might be nice to go riding and I could hang out with urinymous busch. when I talked to fred last night about jason, he acted like there was something wrong with him. oh well, nobody ever likes any of my friends. the pictures are of charlie "urinymous busch" and his buddy, lunchbox. in pgc news, I have protested doing team leader work when I am not team leader. they are piling the lists of stuff to move onto me and I have to keep up with the regular restock at the same time. they either need to make me leader, or make someone else leader so they can do that work. they're fucking me! who else could do the job? joe? his fireworks would make mine look like a sparkler. shawn? he doesn't even pay attention to what the hot items in his aisles are. good luck figuring out what to do about that, you secretive fuckers!

it's just another blog entry

2009-08-19T19:50:00.000-07:00

I'm all juiced on caffeine and it's 10:51 on a wednesday night. I've been fighting a virus at work for the past week and just got the upper hand today with spybot s&d. the virus constantly tries to start and spoybot constantly terminates the process. I had to use malwarebyte's anti-malware to stop the virus and I think that spybot is like reinforcing the wall. I will bring my code to activate the webroot that I transferrred via flash drive and hopefully vanquish the vile foe. when I was bored today, I took this pic. the brush hangs where a belt is supposed to be.

regular "a" blog

2009-08-16T10:21:00.000-07:00

let's see, my guts are eft, which limits the amount of liquor I can drink, but not beer. re-upped the hippy lettuce, hung out with urinymous busch this weekend (these 2 go together). there's a new pic of the matt-o-taur in his angel blowing gear. and also a pic of what happens to my hair when I ride my bike. notice the darker clumps that are clearly soaked in sweat. I'm downloading some al di meola for good jazz, and some vision divine in an effort to keep up with the rhapsody of fire boys and their side projects (all of which sound like rhapsody). I was trying very hard to do some tracking in the "studio" this weekend, but came up with nothing. my studio is accessable by turning my chair slightly and moving the keyboard. now, I think I will go get some shite take-out food, turn on a torrented movie, and try to do some more tracks after lunch.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-08-09T18:19:00.000-07:00

the day might have gone by like a normal sunday, but I just got back from selena's and entertaining my dad with government, political, and new world order stuff. my mom told us all about her library sleep-over. after I got dropped off, I had a few moments of uncertainty, but upon my return from wegman's i am now very certain I did the right thing. $10.55 for a six pack of old chub is worth it at 8% and tasting dark and full bodied. I haven't had any alcohol since thursday night because my guts were hurting. let's hope I gave them the break they needed. now I'm going to drink expensive beer, smoke a cold bong and watch breaking bad. ;P

vacation of emptiness

2009-08-07T09:19:00.000-07:00

there it is: a vacation of 4 days stretching out in front of me. what will I do during this time? damned if I know. some 4 tracking could take up time (4 days 4 tracks), I could ride my bike, watch the countless videos that I have torrented and will surely torrent soon... Shawn and katie will stop by tomorrow and I've got to go out to eat with my parents on sunday. also there is some small amount of hippy lettuce available for at least 2 good sessions along with the low concentration leaf material I got from joe. through the ice bong it shouldn't be too bad. loading picture of ice bong... as you can see, the second chamber was chopped and a peanut butter jar was added with a hole in the lid. it loads good and "draws like a pencil" as charlie "urinymous busch" would say. he knows all about the reptilians called the annunaki and about nibiru and the end of an era in 2012, but still gets excited about major sporting events and eats shitty food full of high fructose corn syrup. that hassle free zone is hard to exit when your mind is completely closed like his. well, I got a coffee from mobil and I intend to spend some time learning a vocal number today, so as this blog draws to a close I leave with a question. what would you do for 4 days if you were me?

bmx hurts

2009-08-05T15:00:00.000-07:00

yeah, I threw out my lower back/hip area again. everything was going fine, I was hopping dark patches of new pavement on a deserted side street, then I went for a sideways grass gap and the pain began. my low tire pressure is working great! especially the front wheel as I need to smoosh it before I do a manual/wheelie/turn kind of thing. and for dropping curbs to the right. they both start with a sideways smoosh and turn type of movement. I got some cannabis leaves from joe today and they smell like elephant dook. also my 4 day weekend that surrounds my birthday is coming up in 2 days. no idea what to do for 4 days with no order picker access to correct back problems. wish me luck.

new pictures, new video on youtube

2009-08-03T18:09:00.000-07:00

the pictures are of a misspelled box at work and the neck of my ibanez. the real spelling is sarah's angels and I was trying to measure how low the action is. besides that, I killed all the bananas at work and bumpy was being a pestering little brat. she just keeps going with her disjointed and meandering conversation about herself. she needs a blog. where this type of behavior is expected and even encouraged. I digress. I'm drinking blended pears with vodka tonight. it's kindof too solid to be a drink, but too liquid to bite. oh! the video! I was playing quest for glory 2 when I happened upon some characters who liked what I had to say.

oh no! paying for internet?

2009-08-01T13:36:00.000-07:00

yeah, it's true. the old pirate skills aren't paying off as good as they used to. but the good news is that a real band wants a sound sample from me. of course i'm too effed to provide it right now, but when I can, I will blow them away with shredding. otherwise, I've been smoking up a storm on the old peace pipe. almost out actually. the bag had lots of "beaners". oh well, I'm interneting it up anyway. check out bagels playing broom guitar and smoke a toke of the sticky icky.

long time no post

2009-07-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

still no internet at home. i figured out that to get the music to work in the old qfg games, i needed to set the sound to roland. got an mp3 player from my mom so i listen to rhapsody while i drive. the flash drive goes to work every day as i bring home power tab files and mp3s from school ebook library. the picture is todd from work and the blur is matt, afraid of becoming even more famous. the other picture is from burt goldman, the quantum jumper. look him up.

corn syrup bust

2009-07-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

the replenishment team confiscated a shipment of artificial sweeteners the other day. by the way, all the adderall is gone.

giant bug at work

2009-07-08T10:19:00.000-07:00

took yesterday off it was boring and miserable and i hurt my back again. tried to get verizon internet this morning and verizon doesn't know what brockport is. bob saw this bug at lunch.

another wasted weekend

2009-07-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

i slammed the amphetamines on saturday before riding my bike to albion. saw my downstairs neighbor, fred on the way back and then proceeded to drink&draw the night away. charlie came over and insisted on cleaning my kitchen.

the other weekend...

2009-07-02T11:01:00.000-07:00

on friday i took 1 adderall xr, went to charlie's, drank, smoked lettuce, had a great time. on saturday i took 2, went for a walk, took another, drink and draw time, called tj, took another, went to tj's and suddenly woke up on his couch at 11am the next day. went home to pay rent and took another. i alternated coffee and water all day and went to my parents feeling like dook. returning home, i had 2 mixed drinks and tossed and turned through the night. i felt even worse getting ready for work and had to stop on the way to call an ambulance. i felt like i was discorporating and my hands formed retard fists tthat wouldn't unclench. i flagged down an suv and had that dude call for me. todd and joyce stopped and i told them i wouldn't be at work. this bitch cop shows up, cuffs me and throws me in the back of her car. emts show up and can't work thier blood pressure machine so it cuts off the circulation in my arm. at the hospital i get a second iv and more sticky things (17 total). they gave me valium and turned the alerts off on my monitor cause it was always on alert. i fell asleep and woke up feeling better. they released me, but now i'm in the city with no ride to brockport. called my dad, he lectured me all the way home. we picked up my car and he didn't care about the new a-hole. rough weekend.

more pictures

2009-06-30T12:33:00.000-07:00

no time to type at work. pictoral documentation only

still blogging from work

2009-06-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

ate some speed last weekend, here's soe cool pictures and help with guitar playing.

music picture collages

2009-06-10T12:20:00.001-07:00

blogging at work again

2009-06-04T07:50:00.000-07:00

no internet at home. locke figured out i was stealing it, so they turned it off. i've been doing acoustic guitar and vocal songs with the h2, trying to get them all done while drinking massive booze. pgc is a hell of inventory, so nothing's really going right. arkron even told me he doesn't want to make any progress at playing guitar. listen to fake-satan from norway, work in real hell, try to make music alone, drink like a fish. strange living conditions = going crazier.

black metal history month

2009-05-29T16:49:00.000-07:00

I've been studying the early 90s late 80s norweigan black metal scene pretty heavily due to my enchantment with burzum, and I've got to say those guys were some sick fucks. not that there's anything wrong with that. "dead" was obsessed with death. he slept over animal corpses to get that stench of death on him and brought dead crows to band practice for inspiration. he even buried himself for 3 days to get corpse rot under his eyes. and his buddy in mayhem only encouraged this behavior. I learned about the music sect and the violent sect and how they met and the whole deal. very interesting stuff. watch "black metal documentary" on google video along with "satan rides the media" and torrent "once upon a time in norway" if you want the whole story. these were intelligent lunatics with a real new idea set that they really believed in. for good music, check out some burzum, immortal, night conquers day and a little ancient to top it off nicely. euronymus and dead were the bestest buddies like in this picture.

one hand signal = meaning of life

2009-05-26T14:02:00.000-07:00

yes, this explains it all. the banks do it to you by closing at 4 pm "hey, that's right when I get out of work!" and not accepting canadian change "what am I supposed to do with it then?", arkron's picture frames just did it to me (2 sizes = 2-small and 2-large). the water authority does it (fluoride, lead, etc...). I could go on forever. sometimes we even do it to ourselves: I spent too much money, so now I'm broke. don't get me started on the federal government and federal reserve, let alone the reserves team at pgc. everyone's getting fucked.

long weekend

2009-05-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

I've got 3 days off from work, so last night I drank lots of vodka, and went on a bloody and drunken ride to wegmans for coffee and nutmeg. resin scraping was also fruitful and even came up with enough for tonight too. I ripped my shin open trying a one footer on flat ground. I also cooked my first batch of brown rice last night. it came out ok, but I couldn't eat musch as it was very bland. cinnamon would help. or maybe some nutmeg? shaolin minks have got it so easy. they train at martial arts and meditate or pray for hours, eat vegan and that's it. wishing I was learning tiger-crane.

I've got better letters

2009-05-16T14:45:00.000-07:00

the letters "aa" are total shite. they stand for moping in a dungeon and feeling sorry for yourself and those around you. memorize your phrases and pray all you want, it won't help anything or anyone. my letters are "bmx" and they stand for getting exercise, being outside, going places, having fun, and challenging yourself to improve abilities. I'd like to see aa try to match those criteria. anyway, I was dissatisfied with my computer setup because I had trouble typing when leaning over or sitting sideways. I moved some stuff around and didn't really solve the problem, but on my way back from the store, I saw something that did solve it. this was at the "always classy" sorority house. I pushed the desk home (it has wheels) and up the stairs (pain in the a) and now I'm sitting pretty, typing at a desk that was used by hot chicks. they treated it nice, though. no graffiti, the top was broken off, but who needs a shelf over their screen? this morning when I went to do laundry, the place got even shittier. half of the floor got torn up and there was a liquor bottle (not pictured) in one corner. also, check the new video and be sure to read it's description.

nudge nudge wink wink

2009-05-14T15:47:00.000-07:00

crystalline structures, five three seven primordial thursday, wearing a white hood and hating niggers minus one of the kays. a return journey is inevitable. also my mom called from the library wanting help at about 6:30. I denied and now wonder what she wanted.

new songs

2009-05-13T15:37:00.000-07:00

last night I fucked up making mp3s of my newest stuff. upon my arrival at work, I went to show them off only to be dissed by my conversion skills. disappointed and hung over, I smoked a J and tried to get my psyche out of the toilet. I don't know how I did it, but tonight I made good ones. 6 new songs are now in existance. I will try to make a youtube vid for 1 or 2 of them.

foolishness in the inferno

2009-05-12T14:57:00.000-07:00

who says there's no time for horseplay in hell? I snapped this picture of matt today and it reminded me of the one that shawn asked to take of me. I'm drinking guiness because I figure there isn't much time left to hide in my job and apartment, so I better enjoy it while I can.

ever increasing police state

2009-05-10T14:45:00.000-07:00

today I drank too much coffee which caused me to clean my whole apartment and go to walmart to get a new trash can that logan hasn't puked in. on my return trip, I saw 2 cop cars. 1 was lurking near the old walmart looking for careless drivers which is bad enough, but routine. the other was on my street and was equipped with at least 2 cameras pointing out diagonally from the trunk area and facing front. there could be more cameras that I didn't see. I wanted to take a picture and talk to the officer within, but was too afraid of the consequences if he was not in a good mood, or I was seen as some type of info-terrorist. this is also right after I watched the film "washington, you're fired" so my NWO senses were in hyperdrive. I'll be going to my parents' place shortly for mothers day dinner and will relate the police state news to them and see what they think of it.

discovery/science channel is mind control

2009-05-09T19:21:00.000-07:00

it is clear that if you use a little common sense, you can disprove these pseudoscientists like michio kaku (pic). the dragons special is absurd even though they say it's "hypothetical" and there's even one where they say that a space station tied to the earth would work. what happens when something gets in the way of the teather? point is, it's ALL hypothetical AND most of it is probably false. it seems that they just dig up quacks and random hippies from local coffee shops to narrate the programs. sometimes they don't even display names under the people EVER! unknown dumbasses are telling me about the secrets of the universe! WHEN YOU LOK UP "FULL OF SHIT" THE PICTURE FROM THIS ENTRY WILL APPEAR. i'd rather trust the random hippy than this jackass. don't believe a single word that comes out of his mouth. he could convince the average american that he's german and that wild irish rose tastes good. the only thing that passes his lips is the bull-sheast!

the b in b-town stands for beer

2009-05-09T07:54:00.000-07:00

all of b-town was in an uproar last night while arkron and myself peacefully jammed some blues and had a few beers. we both made some progress and called it a night. upon leaving my house this morning, I could see that all those college people who I saw partying yesterday had made a gigantic mess all over everywhere. empty beer containers aplenty and the laundrymat was totally fucked. there was even a beer can on the windowsill of the town courthouse.

I won the fart stinking contest

2009-05-08T11:52:00.000-07:00

I had been trying to get rid of some soy milk because I bought too much. I also have been eating a lot of broccoli recently. now, add 4 molson xxxs last night and you get the rankest, stinkiest, most horrible smelling farts available to the human race. when pgc let out early today, shawn said he would get lunch with me. needless to say, he didn't show. I had blasted him in his aisle before leaving and hence, won the contest that I had challenged him to so long ago.
prediction: bumpy's dad will die while she is on vacation in florida. she leaves tomorrow and he has a temperature of over 100 degrees today. you do the math.

furniture remodeling

2009-05-03T13:45:00.000-07:00

I had these 2 dook-ass sheast chairs. 1 was about to fall apart and the other was so uncomfortable that I couldn't sit in it. so I combined them! the one with the green back is going in the trash and I'm sitting on the good one as I type this.

HOW TO TORRENT

2009-04-29T10:14:00.000-07:00

step 1. go to download.com and get u torrent. the u is a different symbol, but utorrent will bring you the right program.
step 2. after you install this, go to torrent finder by typing it into google. this page is like the white/yellow pages for torrent sites. it has a search bar where you can type into to search every torrent site for the same info. you can then navigate the other sites through their tabs. all of these are whole sites themselves, so if you eventually find one you like, you can just go to that site instead of torrent finder.
step 3. let's assume we're looking for a movie. type in the name of the movie to get results. you may have to include the year that it was made. this brings up a list of torrents. at the top of the list are the most popular and the ones that match your search the best. movies are 700MB .avi files. don't stray too far from that unless you are willing to take a risk or know what you're doing. they must have seeds and leeches. the more the better and the faster your download will finish.
step 4. once you've decided on a torrent, click it to go to it's page. this is where you can examine it closer. look for bad comments, wrong file names or extensions like .rmvb. assuming that you've found a decent torrent, click it again to download.
step 5. this brings up a window that should ask you if you want to open it with utorrent. agree to this and utorrent will open on it's own and bring up another window. this lets you select the files within the torrent. you can usually skip "downloaded from demonoid" files and any "readme" or "important! read this first!" .srt files are subtitles. once you've checked and unchecked the files that you do/don't want, press ok and tada! you're torrenting. you've become a leech. when it says it's done, 100%, you can watch the movie.
step 6. when the download finishes, you become a seed. this means that you have the whole file and are uploading it. it's ok to upload lots of things at once, but not good to download lots of things at once. if you try to download 10 movies at the same time, they will never finish, but if you get them one at a time, you can just keep uploading them for other people regardless of how many you have.
step 7. search for info on how to torrent faster/better. this is the best way to learn. watch everybody's youtube videos about fast torrents and settings. use some common sense and try to understand this torrent thing. it can be fun to learn and get cool media at the same time.

new videos

2009-04-28T19:08:00.000-07:00

I got pulled over by the cops today. I was leaving work and in normal fashion, I was doing 48 in a 30mph zone. he gave me the once over, but I probably looked so scared that he just let me go. I know that he checked me on his computer, but I don't think he did anything but look me up for info. check the new vids and I'm going to be posting another picture when I'm at work.

begging to fly with the angels while partying with demons

2009-04-21T17:52:00.000-07:00

I sometimes think about my life. I think of it in the way that another person outside myself would think of it. I try to imagine that I have never met me before and start to analyze. why the fuck have I stood in defiance to authority for almost no reason and committed senseless violence for almost no reason on inanimate objects? did the media confuse me or did I have evil intents to begin with? I know the exact time that I went wrong too. when I smoked reefer the second time with dave langfelder. I should have left it at once and said "I've done it, that's all I wanted." If I had done that, I'd be in an expensive art studio right now instead of an apartment and working at a shitty warehouse. if I was a rich artist, I wouldn't be so afraid of the imminent financial collapse. that future for me is so far gone that I don't know what to do. can I regain it? forget the new world order, accept the programming, try to live with it, but try not to let it pollute me so that I can succeed better than those that are programmed and polluted by the system? would it work? the other thought that plagues my mind is what if the drugs have had some effect on my ability to learn. if this is just temporary or totally false, then I believe that stopping the booze and the h-lettuce will end any perception of it as those things are associated with my past and I want to focus on the future now. I am so plastered when I'mwriting this that I have trouble sometimes finding the letters I need. the point is that I believe that Iwas origionally intended to find a peaceful life in media creation vs an unhappy one fighting and running from the media. RKRON. richard kron, arkron the darklord, my neighbor. I think he knows I smoke the green all the time. but I go and play guitar with him on fridays. he likes the guitar jam and someone to talk to, but doesn't like hippy lettuce, so he probably should only give positive readings to my parents.

replenishment team

2009-04-17T08:47:00.001-07:00

we're armed to the teeth and smoking in the flow rack area (21st circle of hell)

guitornography

2009-04-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

I was just on ebay to look up a price for the pedal I put on craigslist and stumbled onto some guitornographic images. these are guitar pictures that just about make you jazz your shants. we've all seen them, those guitars that scream for you to play them. the ones that have all the right parts in the right places. you think they would feel so good, but just like porn, you're left empty handed and drooling on the keyboard.

better weather = less blogging

2009-04-09T14:42:00.000-07:00

the weather has been nice, I haven't been drinking as much, hence, not as much blogging. I've been practicing speed mechanics for lead on guitar and basic bmx skills outdoors. I saw an old friend over the weekend and he was the same as ever, but a lot more like tj than I would have liked. short hair, listens to aternative rock, living in the surface only illuminati world of disbelief and being brainwashed. I just figured an update was in order. the sin mark on my left hand turned bright white after I got done riding my bike today. maybe it's allergic to healthy activities. I hope it's the mark of this beast right here.

B-town is NOT bmxport

2009-04-02T15:11:00.000-07:00

I tried to go bmxing today because the weather is so nice. not as easy as it would seem. everybody and their cars are everywhere! including the cops! I was circling a shut down auto dealer on it's cement porch, planning my descent, when I round the corner and there's an oink-mobile right there. I did however manage to play on some curbs in various areas for a short time and ended up spending as much time out as yesterday. I'm also torrenting every reasonable copy of Che part 1 to try for a copy that works.

worthless and hopeless

2009-03-31T14:26:00.000-07:00

I broke my computer screen at work today and almost got fired because of it. I don't want to do anything. it's a warm sunny day and I don't want to go outside. don't want to play guitar. barely even want to write my blog. I see no hope of getting out of this terrible life that I've destroyed for myself. wake up, work, go home to almost nothing, sleep, repeat. this is what hell is.

temporary substitute vodka

2009-03-29T17:46:00.000-07:00

I was going to the liquor store too often and buying wine last week. this caused me to take last night off because I'm still having my quarter life crisis and everything is not the way that I would have it. I noticed the time at 4:39 pm today and realized that the liquor store was closing. this caused some mental conflict to which I replied "just go get the fucking ka already!" upon my arrival at the likka stoe, I was not greeted by the holy ka of the heros, but instead nikolai was there. this prompted a conversation between the clerk and myself. he had heard some different stories about why people drink different vodkas and shared these reasons with me. the chocolate banana vodka drink is now called a "banana slam" thanks to shawn. let's just hope my nannas don't go double digits tonight.

drolin temple: complete!

2009-03-23T17:36:00.000-07:00

see the picture. I visited juli and jay today after work. they are the same as ever. I didn't realize that I was in a talking competition until just before I left. I came in second because I talk to people like they are equal. jay talked up to me, so that must mean he lost. the j word talks against people. she would change the tone of her voice when she "scored a point" by being stupider than someone else and when she brought up someone else's flaws. that must mean she won. they're both obama kool aid drinkers, so perhaps they both lost while I sat on the sidelines drinking a beer. the feral tard-child was allowed to simply walk away to do who knows what in another room. I was also informed of a variety of csi/vampire tv series and told that juli has a chance of being in one of them. same old j-word also lied about countless other things too stupid, numerous, or unbelievable to catalog here.

strange saturday

2009-03-21T16:34:00.000-07:00

i woke up hung over. watched barry lyndon (don't ever do that! longest and most tragic movie ever made. designed to assist in suicide attempts.) I then took my car to monroe muffler and they said "this fucker's broken!" to which I replied "Your price is affordable, so fix it." I went home to eat lunch and watch an old sabidote fuvie. at 4:45 I called because they close at 5 and found that they were almost done and I rushed there on bicycle. I wonder if they would have called me? I then dropped off the bike at home after having trouble inserting and removing it from my car. the neighbor woman had spilled her entire apartment onto the front lawn and parked her van in the center of the driveway. I sneaked in ever so carefully. by the time I got back on the road, the van was moved. I went shopping for other things, as the repairs weren't as expensive as I had planned. here's a quick list of the important items: blender, bananas, 2 gig flash drive, altoids box, burnable cds, regular food stuff. the blender, when combined with bananas, chocolate milk, and vodka, will become a danger to my health. some Kyle Newman guy replied to my craigslist ad and knows who I am. he saw me playing with alex and luis. I have some hope that this might be a good thing. overall, my saturday is very strange.

that last post was total shite

2009-03-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

seriously, it was accidental.

evil in front of your children's faces

2009-03-19T19:28:00.000-07:00

this walt disney logo has been highlighted to show hidden numbers. notice the number of the beast many times over of sixes and nines (upside down sixes). the number of towers and sripes in the castle too. there are sexual images in other disney flicks. look.

new video

2009-03-18T20:07:00.000-07:00

there's a new video on my bar and youtube page called scanner spinning. this was made in the afternoon today. shawn held the camera. scanner spinning is easy once you learn it. when you're in the warehouse and bored, you can come up with some strange ways to amuse yourself.